Saturday, March 10, 2007

Madonna Love

Woah! Dreams can be bizarre! I only remember a snippet of this dream I was having last night, but it was vivid.

I walked into this big open room. It was somewhat rustic, not brightly lit, and had a nice ambiance. There was an 'Upper Room' sort of feel to it. I think it had wooden floors, and there was a dining room sized table on the left as I walked in. It was coffee table height, and there were a number of people seated cross-legged on the floor behind it against the wall. One of them, the one at the far end, was Madonna.

I walked in with a few other people (no idea who), and began to wander to the right of another large table with chairs around it in the middle of the room. Suddenly, Madonna, having become aware of the shift in social dynamics, and of a vague sense of awkwardness, jumped up to greet us. She came around the table in pursuit of one of the newly arrived guests. Unaware of her approach, and apparently preoccupied with something else, they made their unconscious escape. That left me as a more convenient target. She quickly altered her course and headed for me. I think she may have uttered something to reveal to anyone who was in the vicinity the essence of the thought process leading to her change in direction. I don't recall precisely, but, in any event, she was soon upon me and enveloped me in a warm and lingering embrace. In fact, it was so lingering, that as we embraced we began to sway and, leaning over in a gravity-defying fashion, first in her direction, we began a slow, dance-like rotation. I felt an overwhelming feeling of love, peace, acceptance and intimatacy that my soul soaked in like the foam-lipped sheets of ocean tides into the sandy shore.

Somehow out of that moment a melody formed in my head (and may have also found an audible expression...not sure) that was one of those inspired licks, that have in the past, propelled me out of bed to find a recording device. It had a very compelling bit that detoured for one note into a minor key in such a way that it remained harmonic, but nevertheless toyed with one's sense of the expected. It was definitely a keeper. But in the fleeting moment of transition, from the clarity of the dream, to an awareness that another more tangible reality existed in the comfort and warmth of my bed and my loving wife whose body lay snuggled up nearby, the tune evaporated. Lost until eternity, when all the desires of my heart shall be granted, lost memories will be restored (in perfect context), and the bliss of that embrace will be like a dream from which I will never awaken.

Psalm 37

Saturday, February 17, 2007

My DSL Speed

To Palo Alto




To San Francisco




To Los Angeles




To Miami

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Gettin' Bizy!

Hallelujah! Yesterday I got an ENTHUSIASTIC JOB OFFER from Alvarez Technology Group (http://www.alvareztg.com) for an Operations Center Technician position. I spent a few hours working with Michelle, the woman who will be my mentor (boss?) and she's really nice. So are the Alvarezes (Louis & Ronni) who own the company. I'm really excited about working in such a warm, family-like atmosphere. This is the job I told God that I wanted (subject to his will for me of course). The pay is significantly better than the position with Alisal Union School District that I had previously accepted, but hadn’t been given a start date for yet. It will also afford me greater opportunity to learn cutting edge technology. Their offices are located just a couple of blocks from where Lisa works and our hours will coincide. That means that we can commute together and that we will save at least $300/mo. in gas costs! Woo hoo!! I will probably start on February 1st which is tomorrow.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Wayne Wiffed! A swing and a miss!

I flunked my exam AGAIN! Waaah! Unbelievable...but true. I didn't do much better than the previous time. I'm not sure how to proceed from here, but I need to do something different...that's for sure. Back to the drawing board.

I finished my paperwork, TB test & fingerprinting for Alisal Union School District this week. They should be calling me to start by mid-next week. Mean time I'm waiting for a call from Alvarez. They said they would make a decision this week, but I'm learning that one can't rely on statements of this nature from prospective employers.

Meanwhile, I have another interview coming up this coming week with SSCS, Inc. who write software for, and install and maintain systems for running gas station/convenience stores. They pay better than the school, but significant travel is required. When I was asking God whether I should fork out the money for the TB test and fingerprinting (which we can't really afford right now) I got this verse twice:

"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty." Phil 4:11,12a

I'm not sure if that means not to worry about the cost of the 2 pre-requisites, or that I'm not getting the Alvarez job and just need to deal with the fact that the school job is where I'm supposed to be, even though the pay is way under the market rate for this area. More shall be revealed.

I heard an interesting tidbit regarding Alisal Union School District: my boss-to-be has been picketing for better pay! Rock on AG!

Speaking of hearing from God: Lisa and I have been wanting to become better community group leaders. We haven't really had a good spiritual focus to our meetings...more just feasting and fellowship. But I've been reading a book I got from The Word Shop titled: Surprised By The Voice Of God by . Besides the obvious, it deals with being led by the Spirit and leveraging the Gifts of the Spirit. So as I was praying about our community group, it suddenly occurred to me that what might be really cool besides coming up with something to study is to see people really begin to operate in the Spirit so that we are all ministering to each other rather then me feeling like the 'Under-Shepherd' trying to nurture the flock from my own misguided sense of how things aught to be. (as IF!) That's not 'Church'! I've been asking God to speak to me lately (which is something I have fear around...long story), and I don't remember how this realization came to me or how it felt, but I remember vividly that as I stood at the bottom of the stairs, looking up at my beautiful wife, as soon as I voiced my feeling that we should study the gifts of the Spirit as a group, the Holy Spirit tickled my insides in that (to me) familiar way that tells me: "Hey Wayne...God speaking...this is from me! Thanks for playing. Love, God."

The beat goes on...

=^)Wayne